Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Finished 9 days

So I officially made it though 9 days! I am proud that I did it.
I was able to loose 7 lbs. In additon to that I feel better.
I know the truth about foods and how much they affect our emotions and overall physical being. Yet, why can I not stay away from the offending foods?
Because they taste sooo good!

I also experienced something this week that I had noticed in the past.
When you begin to change your eating habits, women around you don't like it.
They begin to say comments that can be hurtful. Like "oh look at her being good" or "she won't eat that anymore, well I will..." They talk about you like you are not in the room, yet you are standing right there. It is like you have left this overeaters club and now you don't belong. They talk as if you now don't understand what it is like to be overweight. I have learned not to take offense to it. I have probably done it as some point in time. I think it is a defense mechanism women take when they feel bad about their weight and see someone actually doing something about it. Women tend to act like they can't ever loose weight when in all actuality they just haven't tried. I know, I have been there many times...and will probably be there again.
It however reinforces to me the whole notion that when you overeat or eat things that are not healthy that you are bad. When you are heavier than the world thinks you should be, you are bad. These are the thoughts that I want to overcome. I want freedom from. Yet, even in the midst of loosing weight (again), those messages are still coming at me loud and clear from the people around me. People who love me and are my friends. I know they are not even aware of it, yet it speaks volumes of crap to me.

Day 10

7:30 Oatmeal
2 hours Walking
11:30 Smoothie
12:30 Vege Soup, granola bar
3:40 Yogurt
7:30 2 slices healthy pizza - crust made with oatmeal,
Mojito - ok, big cheat!

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Day 9

7:00 Oatmeal, Banana, yogurt, blueberries
11:30 pinnaple coconut smoothie
12:30 Vege soup
3:15 Banana, yogurt
6:45 Brown rice, corn, green beans, zucchini

Monday, June 28, 2010

Day 8

7:00 1/2 c oatmeal, 1/2 cont. yogurt, banana
11:00 carrots, granola bar
12:30 Southwest Salad
3:30 Popcorn
7:00 corn
8:00 banana
9:00 2 bowls cabbage soup (just got done making it, had to try was good)

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Day 7

10:30 Oatmeal with blueberries
12:30 3 egg omelet with tomato/onion/basil
(not suppose to have whole eggs yet, but needed protein)
5:00 Yogurt/popcorn
8:00 Blueberries, banana
9:00 popcorn

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Day 6

7:30 Banana
10:30 Oatmeal/Yogurt/strawberries/blueberries
1:30 Sweet Potato, grilled veges
5:00 Strawberry/blueberry smoothie, granola bar
7:00 Popcorn

Friday, June 25, 2010

Day 5

5:30 Workout
8:00 Oatmeal/yogurt/banana/blueberries
10:45 Banana
1:00 Grilled veges, plain sweet potato
4:30 Banana
5:15 1/2 c brown rice/veges, few bites zucchini pancake
Strawberry/blueberry/yogurt smoothie

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Day 4

6:00 Workout
8:00 Oatmeal with Greek Yogurt (high in protien) and blueberries
11:30 2 grilled vege scewers, broccoli, plain sweet potato
4:00 2 Bananas, Decaf Green tea
6:15 leaf lettuce w/ tomato and dressing

I feel really good today. I can tell a difference having all the sugar and caffiene out of my system. Amazing the difference. Just wish I could stay here and not go back. That is what is frustrating. I know how I feel without it and yet, it is so hard to stay away from it. One taste of sugar and you are hooked again.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Day 3

6:45 Banana
9:30 Oatmeal with Strawberries/blueberries
12:00 Brown rice/veges watermelon
4:00 6 oz. yogurt
6:00 Zucchini, greenbeans, corn on cob
7-8:20 went walking

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Day 2

5:45 Banana
6-7:15 Workout
8:00 1 c. oatmeal with Strawberries/Blueberries
11:00 6 oz. yogurt
12:00 1/2 c. brown rice/veges
4:00 Watermelon and 1/2 apple
6:00 Zucchini pancakes
8:30 Herbal Tea

Monday, June 21, 2010

Starting Over - Again! Day 1

It has been 2 years since I have posted on here. It is two years since I have decided I need a restart. I am to a place again where food has a hold over me. My eating has become destructive. It is hurting me physically and emotionally. It has to stop! I don't like the person I am when I am overeating. It is not the person God wants me to be. I need to blog in order to be serious. I can cheat when I am writing things down at home and no one sees. It is harder to cheat when I know people in my life are looking. So, here I go again! I decided to go back to doing Fat Smash. It works for me and I need the structure. So Today is Day one....

8:30 - 1 cup oatmeal with fresh strawberries and blueberries
Bike Ride, and yard work, Water
11:30 - Apple, Watermelon, 6 oz. yogurt, Water
2:30 - 1 Cup brown rice, banana, water
5:30 - 1 C. brown rice, vege mixture (onions,pepper,zucchini,tomato,mixed beans), water
7:30 - herbal tea