Monday, April 02, 2007

long time no post

This is for Leslie W. who faithfully checks my blog and reminded me that I haven't posted in a long time.
I think the biggest reason is that I am struggling with the eating stuff.
I am still working out 5-6 days a week. That is going great.
I have gone on to phase 4 and over if there are other phases and basically ditched most of the fat smash plan. I don't want to ditch it, I am just a little bored with it.
I probably need a week of phase 1 to get me back in gear.
I am maintaining my weight. I am building muscle....you should see my arms...really, I will show you anytime. I am liking my arms. Paul tells me to quit looking at myself and feeling my muscles.
I am down to a size 8-10 depending on the clothing. I am happy with that, except for the fact that I have no shorts that fit. They all are falling off.
I would like to loose 5 more pounds, but will be okay if I don't.
I am afraid of getting too comfortable.
I am afraid the weight is going to come pouring back on.
I know this is forever, I am just having a hard time coming to grips with that.
I enjoy working out, but can't imagine working out 6 days a week for the rest of my life.
So, I will just keep on for now. Perhaps if I get motivated at some point I will go back to phase 1 and give it another go. I just can't imagine going back right now. I especially don't think I can give up coffee right now. It has really been helping my mood swings lately.
Anyway, I am rambling. But I wanted to give Leslie something to read tomorrow.