Day 5

5:30 Workout
8:00 Oatmeal/yogurt/banana/blueberries
10:45 Banana
1:00 Grilled veges, plain sweet potato
4:30 Banana
5:15 1/2 c brown rice/veges, few bites zucchini pancake
Strawberry/blueberry/yogurt smoothie

Day 4

6:00 Workout
8:00 Oatmeal with Greek Yogurt (high in protien) and blueberries
11:30 2 grilled vege scewers, broccoli, plain sweet potato
4:00 2 Bananas, Decaf Green tea
6:15 leaf lettuce w/ tomato and dressing

I feel really good today. I can tell a difference having all the sugar and caffiene out of my system. Amazing the difference. Just wish I could stay here and not go back. That is what is frustrating. I know how I feel without it and yet, it is so hard to stay away from it. One taste of sugar and you are hooked again.

Day 3

6:45 Banana
Workout
9:30 Oatmeal with Strawberries/blueberries
water
12:00 Brown rice/veges watermelon
4:00 6 oz. yogurt
6:00 Zucchini, greenbeans, corn on cob
water
7-8:20 went walking

Day 2

5:45 Banana
6-7:15 Workout
8:00 1 c. oatmeal with Strawberries/Blueberries
11:00 6 oz. yogurt
12:00 1/2 c. brown rice/veges
4:00 Watermelon and 1/2 apple
6:00 Zucchini pancakes
8:30 Herbal Tea

Starting Over - Again! Day 1

It has been 2 years since I have posted on here. It is two years since I have decided I need a restart. I am to a place again where food has a hold over me. My eating has become destructive. It is hurting me physically and emotionally. It has to stop! I don't like the person I am when I am overeating. It is not the person God wants me to be. I need to blog in order to be serious. I can cheat when I am writing things down at home and no one sees. It is harder to cheat when I know people in my life are looking. So, here I go again! I decided to go back to doing Fat Smash. It works for me and I need the structure. So Today is Day one....

8:30 - 1 cup oatmeal with fresh strawberries and blueberries
Bike Ride, and yard work, Water
11:30 - Apple, Watermelon, 6 oz. yogurt, Water
2:30 - 1 Cup brown rice, banana, water
5:30 - 1 C. brown rice, vege mixture (onions,pepper,zucchini,tomato,mixed beans), water
7:30 - herbal tea

Day 13/14

Day 13
8:00 Ezekiel Cereal/banana/rice milk
12:00 Southwest Salad
4:00 Goat's milk yogurt
7:00 Onion/Tomato/spinach/black beans/corn
2 slices Ezekiel Bread
1 slice pizza (I couldn't resist,however it wasn't worth how I felt after eating it)

Day 14
8:00 Puffins cereal (wheat free)rice milk
workout
11:30 Tuna/mayo Nut-brown rice crackers, goats milk yogurt, banana
Walked a mile with the kids
3:00 Pineapple/banana/coconut frozen yogurt smoothie
3:30 8 nut-rice crackers
5:30 Rice chips/salsa/hummus, strawberry smoothie

Days 8 - 12

Day 8
7:20 Oatmeal (out of regular had to have instant)
Workout
1:00 Cabbage soup, pita chips/hummus
Sugar free, soy milk, decaf latte
Banana
3:20 Orange, 6 grapes
5:00 salad w/chicken and light sun dried tomato dressing
Orange
9:30 2 Bananas

Day 9
7:30 Oatmeal/Banana
Workout
11:20 Tuna/Mayo Pita Chips, Banana
Yard work
3:00 Pita Chips/hummus, orange
5:30 Cabbage soup, 2 oyster crackers
8:00 2 Chocolate chip cookies (thanks Debra!)

Day 10
7:30 Oatmeal
Workout
12:00 12 oz. Tuna/mayo, pita chips, Apple
2:00 4 pretzels, 1 chocolate chip cookie
4:45 strawberry/Banana smoothie
7:00 2 eggs, banana

Day 11
7:45 grapenuts cereal/rice milk/banana
Workout
11:15 cashews
11:45 various samples at Whole Foods store, p'nut butter cookie
1:30 Smoothie - strawberry/banana/protein (smoothie king)
5:45 Brown Rice crackers/6 oz. tuna/mayo
8:00 banana, hard boiled egg

Day 12
8:00 Ezekiel cereal/banana/rice milk
workout
11:00 rice chips/fresh salsa/hummus, 1/2 cup goats milk yogurt
4:00 cashews, 1 slice Ezekiel bread
5:00 rice chips/salsa/hummus, 1/2 cup goats milk yogurt (liked it so well at lunch I had it again!)

Day 4-7

Oops a little behind...

Day 4
7:15 Oatmeal/Banana
10:00 Apple
Cleaned (semi workout!)
1:00 Chicken Breast, 1 muffin, Strawberry/Banana Smoothie
4:00 2 oranges, handful cashews
6:00 salad with chicken breast, light sundried tomato dressing
1 muffin

Day 5
8:00 Oatmeal/Banana
Workout
10:30 cashews/4 blueberries
11:45 roasted chicken, orange, strawberry/banana smoothie
3:15 6 grapes/3 muffins
4:30 handful cashews
5:00 little soup (tasting during cooking)
7:30 Vege pizza (2 small pieces)

Day 6 (cheated and weighed - lost 6 lbs)
8:00 oatmeal/Banana
1:00 handful cashews (2 pita chips/hummus)
2:00 Cabbage soup
5:30 Beef brisket (with bbq sauce),baked apples, 4 fries
8:00 Lemon tea

Day 7
7:00 Oatmeal/Banana
Workout
10:00 handful cashews
12:00 Turkey Avocado Burger/ steamed broccoli
3:30 Lemon Tea
5:15 4 pita chips/hummus, Cabbage soup
8:00 Orange

Day 3

7:30 Oatmeal/Banana
10:30 Apple
9:30 - 12:30 Cleaning (not quite a workout, but a little)
12:30 6 oz. Tuna/1 tbs.mayo/orange/2 strawberries
2:00 cashews/Lemon herbal tea
2:45 2 Tiny oatmeal muffins (sugar free-healthy!)
5:00 1/3 grilled chicken breast/grilled squash/zuch/onions
8:00 3 tiny oatmeal muffins

Day 2

7:30 Oatmeal/Banana

9-10 Yoga
10-11 Weights

11:30 6 oz. Tuna/1Tbs Mayo (made with olive oil)
Carrots/Hummus
Orange
6 Cashew Nuts

2:00 Few Cashews/Banana
4:30 Apple
8:15 Grilled Salmon (little butter-dill sauce)/Broccoli/plain sweet potato

Starting to eat healthy again!

I haven't been feeling well lately and I have also gained a little weight back.
SO I have decided it was time to start again!
I am starting at phase 2 because I cannot cut out all the protein due to weight lifting. I contemplated not posting my food intake, but decided I needed to for the accountability.

7:45 am 1/2 c oatmeal
9:30-11:30 workout/water
11:45 apple
12:30 steamed veges/grilled chicken/water
3:00 orange
4:40 carrots/hummus/water
5:30 grilled squash/zuch/onion
8:00 grapes

Day 363/8

Day 8

8am- oatmeal
9:30 workout/20 oz. water
11:00 meatless chili and brown rice
12:30 banana
2:30 Cauliflower soup/4 brown rice crackers (soup does have cheese in it, but I was making it for tomorrow and had to taste it)
3:30 mini almond joy
6:30-7:30 6 ginger cookies
OK, so I blew it tonight. I didn't even want to post it, but I wanted to be honest.
I was really craving sweets today. I decided to have the almond joy because the Halloween candy has been staring at me all week. I caved. Then I baked cookies for tomorrow and I could not resist. I thought I would just have one and be o.k. NOPE, I had 6. You know you have to taste each batch to make sure they are good to serve to others. They are just amazing cookies and I couldn't help myself.
Hopefully that won't send me into a sugar spiral.

Day 361 and 362/day 6 and 7

Day 6
8 am - Oatmeal
11:40 - vege stir fry/brown rice (from Ghangis Grill)
Water
4:15 pm - Yogurt/string cheese (wanting a little protein)
7 pm - 3 oatmeal cookies
1/2 fruit leather
6-10 stood at concert
10:30 pm - slice vege pizza/water (we went out after concert to pizza place, this was the best I could do at the time. Not FS, but not too unhealthy)

Day 7

9 am - oatmeal
9:30 - 30 min cardio,1 hour yoga, 20 oz. water
12 pm - spinach,tomato,onion w/2 eggs
2-3:30 physical therapy
4 pm - yogurt/soynuts/apple
5 pm - meatless chili
5:45 - 2 oatmeal cookies
6:30 - 1 oatmeal cookie/Yogi detox tea ( I am really craving sweets right now. I am going for the cookies over the Halloween candy in the house!)

Day 360/day 5

8 am - Oatmeal
9 am - cardio boxing class
20 oz. water
11 am - 2 oatmeal cookies
12:15 pm - sm. bowl tomato zucchini soup/water
2:15 pm - salad with tomatoes and soy nuts/LF dressing
1 oatmeal cookie
5:00 pm - 2 oatmeal cookies
7:15 pm - 5 fried mushrooms, cup potato cheese soup
(ok, dinner I was bad, but I resisted the banana cream pie- my belly actually hurts a bit from the grease and high fat content.)

Day 359 /day 4

8 am - Oatmeal
9-10 Weights class
10-11 Yoga class
20 oz. water
11:00 - 2 Oatmeal cookies
Brown rice/tomato/spinach/onion
1:00 - yogurt/soynuts/pear
4:00 2 oatmeal cookies
5:00 meatless chili
corn on cob (dab butter/salt)
20 oz. water
7:00 yogurt/1 oatmeal cookie
7:30 Yogi detox tea

Day 358 and 357/day 2 and 3

Day 2

8 am - Oatmeal with Stevia
9:00 - Yoga class
11:00 - brown rice/zucchini/onions/tomato
1:00 - yogurt, banana
2-4:00 - physical therapy
5:00 pm - salad/tomato/soynuts/lowfat dressing
Water
7:00 - Banana/pear/grapes with Yogurt
Decaf spiced chai, splash milk

Day 3

8:00 am - Oatmeal with Stevia
9:15 - 40 min workout 20 oz. water
12:30 Salad/tomato/soynuts
3:15 - yogurt/banana 20 oz. water
5:30 - brown rice/tomato/onion/spinach
1/2 pear Water
7:30 - 4 oatmeal/apple cookies

I am feeling really good. My emotions are much better, I feel good about me right now.

Day 356/ day 1 again

8:00 am Oatmeal/Stevia
9:15 am 40 min workout
20 oz. water
10:40 am handful grapes
11:00 am Yogurt/handful soynuts
1:00 pm Grapes
Bowl homemade chicken soup (had some chicken and noodles in it, but couldn't throw it away, last of the pot)
20 oz. water
3:00 pm Banana
5:00 pm Brown Rice/Lentils Zucchini/tomato/onions (ate a little too much, but it was really good)
10 oz. water
7:00 pm Decaf spiced Chai tea/stevia/dash skim milk
Handful granola nut clusters (another cheat, but healthy)

When all else fails...start again!

Last post I started again, well, I failed again. So, I am starting again. Simple enough. Not really. It is torture to think of starting again. However, I cannot continue on my current path.
I am seriously asking for prayers and support and kicks in the rear if I need them. My eating is so tied to everything in my life. When the eating is out of control so are my emotions. I am irrational and depressed and moody and have "the crabbys" as we call it in our house. I don't want to be crabby any more.
I am going to start posting my eating again. That seems to help me keep accountable to myself and to all my imaginary friends out there.
So....we shall see what tomorrow brings!

Again and again

Looking back at my last post - a little over 2 months ago...I did phase one and lost 7 pounds. I think I have gained them back again. I am really frustrated with myself. I have gotten into really bad eating habits. So again, I start phase one to get myself under control. I think I am stress eating which is really bad. Life is a bit tough these days. I am living in continuous pain in my leg which I have been trying everything to get it better. I just wish someone would tell me what exactly is wrong with it. I have had many places on my skin removed which have been found to be "abnormal" cells. I am not doing so hot at being consistent with Julia's school. I haven't been able to work due to doctors appointments and physical therapy, which adds to our growing financial issues. So, I eat to deal with it! That is what I have always done to deal with my emotions. I'm tired of it.

July 30th is start over time!

I am writing tonight so there is no going back tomorrow. I am starting phase 1 again tomorrow. It is time. I have fell back into old ways and my eating in out of control. Not just amounts of food, but unhealthy choices.
Lorie decided she would come along on the ride with me. That makes it seem easier to go back to detox. We will both have to give up coffee which will be tough. I know we can do it. I know I need to do it.