I had a great day yesterday. I spent the day with a great friend and we had fun shopping and eating out! And we only had one child with us - hers. It was fun to get to do that, hard to remember what it is like to get to go out with a friend without kids!
Anyway, the purpose of my post...
I started phase 1 again. I am now on day 5. The caffeine issue was really tough for the first 3 days. I was in a horrible mood and my head was killing me. Yesterday I decided it wasn't worth it and had a small coffee in the morning. Man, I felt so much better all day.
It is crazy. I hate being a slave to the caffeine, but I don't like the crabby moods.
I also had a silly moment. I am glad I had someone to share it with. I have been on a quest to find a pair of shorts. The only problem with loosing weight is all of a sudden you have no clothes to wear. I have always had the problem on the other end of them being too tight. Well, they look just as bad hanging off of you.
So, we were in Old Navy and I tried on 2 pairs of shorts - size 8 and they were a little baggy.
I started to tear up in the store. For most of you, this will seem crazy and dumb. However, it was a great moment for me. I am not the person who was skinny her whole life then had kids and got fat. I have always been fat. (besides a brief time when I got married and lost a bunch of weight) I have always struggled. I have never liked my body and for as long as I can remember, been a size 12-14. So today when I was in a size 8 and they fit I just couldn't believe it.
I would have never dreamed in a million years I would be here. I was proud of my accomplishment. I haven't been proud of myself in a long time. Thanks God for that hug I so desperately needed yesterday - and the cup of Joe!
Friday, May 11, 2007
Saturday, May 05, 2007
Not much new
Since I was scolded once again for not posting...here it is.
I really don't have anything new to report. I am trying to figure out what my plan is. I know that sounds silly to some, but I have abandoned most of my good eating habits and need a plan to get back in gear. It just seems hard right now. I know I can do it...I know I want to do it, it is just getting my rear in gear. I am not out to loose a bunch more weight, I just need to maintain where I am at. I refuse to let all my hard work go down the drain.
It was nice this week - I saw a friend who I had not seen in over 6 months. She was very surprised at the new me! It is great to be reminded that I have made a huge body change. I don't see it much anymore since I am now used to it. (and of course I still see the negatives)
I wish I had a great before and after picture. Someone gave me a bathing suit pic from last year, but it was not a great shot so hard to tell. I did buy a tankini this year! However, I am still not a fan of bathing suits. Maybe I will get brave and try to get a picture to post.
I am still enjoying exercise. This past 2 weeks I have been a little off my schedule due to working a lot more, but hopefully I can get back into a regular schedule once Julia is out of school.
Well, that is about it for me at the moment. Please keep praying for me. I see huge improvement, but also see the need to get back on my knees and work on my relationship with food again. I can see myself returning to old habits and sin.
I really don't have anything new to report. I am trying to figure out what my plan is. I know that sounds silly to some, but I have abandoned most of my good eating habits and need a plan to get back in gear. It just seems hard right now. I know I can do it...I know I want to do it, it is just getting my rear in gear. I am not out to loose a bunch more weight, I just need to maintain where I am at. I refuse to let all my hard work go down the drain.
It was nice this week - I saw a friend who I had not seen in over 6 months. She was very surprised at the new me! It is great to be reminded that I have made a huge body change. I don't see it much anymore since I am now used to it. (and of course I still see the negatives)
I wish I had a great before and after picture. Someone gave me a bathing suit pic from last year, but it was not a great shot so hard to tell. I did buy a tankini this year! However, I am still not a fan of bathing suits. Maybe I will get brave and try to get a picture to post.
I am still enjoying exercise. This past 2 weeks I have been a little off my schedule due to working a lot more, but hopefully I can get back into a regular schedule once Julia is out of school.
Well, that is about it for me at the moment. Please keep praying for me. I see huge improvement, but also see the need to get back on my knees and work on my relationship with food again. I can see myself returning to old habits and sin.
Monday, April 02, 2007
long time no post
This is for Leslie W. who faithfully checks my blog and reminded me that I haven't posted in a long time.
I think the biggest reason is that I am struggling with the eating stuff.
I am still working out 5-6 days a week. That is going great.
I have gone on to phase 4 and over if there are other phases and basically ditched most of the fat smash plan. I don't want to ditch it, I am just a little bored with it.
I probably need a week of phase 1 to get me back in gear.
I am maintaining my weight. I am building muscle....you should see my arms...really, I will show you anytime. I am liking my arms. Paul tells me to quit looking at myself and feeling my muscles.
I am down to a size 8-10 depending on the clothing. I am happy with that, except for the fact that I have no shorts that fit. They all are falling off.
I would like to loose 5 more pounds, but will be okay if I don't.
I am afraid of getting too comfortable.
I am afraid the weight is going to come pouring back on.
I know this is forever, I am just having a hard time coming to grips with that.
I enjoy working out, but can't imagine working out 6 days a week for the rest of my life.
So, I will just keep on for now. Perhaps if I get motivated at some point I will go back to phase 1 and give it another go. I just can't imagine going back right now. I especially don't think I can give up coffee right now. It has really been helping my mood swings lately.
Anyway, I am rambling. But I wanted to give Leslie something to read tomorrow.
I think the biggest reason is that I am struggling with the eating stuff.
I am still working out 5-6 days a week. That is going great.
I have gone on to phase 4 and over if there are other phases and basically ditched most of the fat smash plan. I don't want to ditch it, I am just a little bored with it.
I probably need a week of phase 1 to get me back in gear.
I am maintaining my weight. I am building muscle....you should see my arms...really, I will show you anytime. I am liking my arms. Paul tells me to quit looking at myself and feeling my muscles.
I am down to a size 8-10 depending on the clothing. I am happy with that, except for the fact that I have no shorts that fit. They all are falling off.
I would like to loose 5 more pounds, but will be okay if I don't.
I am afraid of getting too comfortable.
I am afraid the weight is going to come pouring back on.
I know this is forever, I am just having a hard time coming to grips with that.
I enjoy working out, but can't imagine working out 6 days a week for the rest of my life.
So, I will just keep on for now. Perhaps if I get motivated at some point I will go back to phase 1 and give it another go. I just can't imagine going back right now. I especially don't think I can give up coffee right now. It has really been helping my mood swings lately.
Anyway, I am rambling. But I wanted to give Leslie something to read tomorrow.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Day 105
Few days late posting...
I am back down to where I was...140 to be exact. I don't think I have actually posted my weight, but there you have it folks!
I am not really in any phase. I am eating pretty much what I want, just trying to make healthier decisions. I was getting pretty bored with the same old foods. I would like to go back to phase 1 for another time, but don't know when I am going to do that.
I am really getting more into the weights, so I think I need to proteins to help with muscle building. I can tell a huge difference in my body this week. I am building muscle in my arms. They are starting to have lots of curves - in a good way!
I am pretty happy with where I am at, but would like to keep toning and working on my abs. Man, the Pilate's thing is pretty tough. I don't know that any amount of work is going to get rid of the sagging skin from child birth. A tummy tuck would be nice!
Anyway, just wanted to check in with where I was. I need to watch my sugars. I am eating more of them and find myself craving St. Arbucks all the time!
Yes, the caffeine is what I am craving. I find from working out so hard in the mornings, by afternoon, I am super tired. The caffeine is helping me. I really need a short nap instead. That doesn't happen much these days.
Well....another week and I can't believe my days are in the 100's now~
I wish I had a before and after picture. I am starting to see the difference.
I am back down to where I was...140 to be exact. I don't think I have actually posted my weight, but there you have it folks!
I am not really in any phase. I am eating pretty much what I want, just trying to make healthier decisions. I was getting pretty bored with the same old foods. I would like to go back to phase 1 for another time, but don't know when I am going to do that.
I am really getting more into the weights, so I think I need to proteins to help with muscle building. I can tell a huge difference in my body this week. I am building muscle in my arms. They are starting to have lots of curves - in a good way!
I am pretty happy with where I am at, but would like to keep toning and working on my abs. Man, the Pilate's thing is pretty tough. I don't know that any amount of work is going to get rid of the sagging skin from child birth. A tummy tuck would be nice!
Anyway, just wanted to check in with where I was. I need to watch my sugars. I am eating more of them and find myself craving St. Arbucks all the time!
Yes, the caffeine is what I am craving. I find from working out so hard in the mornings, by afternoon, I am super tired. The caffeine is helping me. I really need a short nap instead. That doesn't happen much these days.
Well....another week and I can't believe my days are in the 100's now~
I wish I had a before and after picture. I am starting to see the difference.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Day 97
I avoided posting on Sunday. It was weigh in day. The scale said I was up 2 lbs. I tried not to get discouraged about it. I do realize that my eating has been a little bit off. I also am taking into account that it was the beginning of my cycle.
I have tried to get back on track with eating. It is hard with all the munchies in my house!
I also had confirmation on Monday that I was ok. In my Yoga class, that I have been attending for almost a year....Monday 3 different people mentioned how great I looked and I had obviously had lost a bunch of weight. That made me feel better. It is funny though, this is the first time any of them had mentioned me loosing weight. I guess it was God timing!
I also started a Weights class on Saturday. I have been doing weights for about a year, and thought I was in pretty good shape. Well, she kicked my bootie on Saturday. My arms were not sore, but my legs were pretty ouchy over the weekend. We didn't even do weights on our legs just lots of squats and lunges. I know where I need to work now!
I had stopped doing weights on my legs because it was hurting my knee too much. The lunges really hurt my knee too, so I need to be careful.
I realized how much I really like working out. I never thought I would say that. I had even started thinking on Monday about maybe working towards being certified to teach Yoga. hmmmm.
It would just be great to get paid to do what I like doing. What a concept!
We shall see. I do see some great improvements in my body, lots more to go, but I am feeling like I am finally moving in the right direction - despite what the scale said this week.
I have tried to get back on track with eating. It is hard with all the munchies in my house!
I also had confirmation on Monday that I was ok. In my Yoga class, that I have been attending for almost a year....Monday 3 different people mentioned how great I looked and I had obviously had lost a bunch of weight. That made me feel better. It is funny though, this is the first time any of them had mentioned me loosing weight. I guess it was God timing!
I also started a Weights class on Saturday. I have been doing weights for about a year, and thought I was in pretty good shape. Well, she kicked my bootie on Saturday. My arms were not sore, but my legs were pretty ouchy over the weekend. We didn't even do weights on our legs just lots of squats and lunges. I know where I need to work now!
I had stopped doing weights on my legs because it was hurting my knee too much. The lunges really hurt my knee too, so I need to be careful.
I realized how much I really like working out. I never thought I would say that. I had even started thinking on Monday about maybe working towards being certified to teach Yoga. hmmmm.
It would just be great to get paid to do what I like doing. What a concept!
We shall see. I do see some great improvements in my body, lots more to go, but I am feeling like I am finally moving in the right direction - despite what the scale said this week.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Day 88 - back to Oatmeal for me
I had a really tough week. I realized that I have a few stressers in my life at the moment. I also gave into carbs and sugar. I feel really crappy physically at the moment.
God was good to me and the scale did not move at all, either way. I am happy about that.
I am going to try not to beat myself up and just jump back into things.
I realized when I have cereal (special K) in the morning instead of oatmeal, I tend to eat more and crave carbs and sugar more during the day.
So, back to oatmeal this week.
I don't want to feel defeated. I want to move on.
I will resist the wonderful cake sitting on my counter.
God was good to me and the scale did not move at all, either way. I am happy about that.
I am going to try not to beat myself up and just jump back into things.
I realized when I have cereal (special K) in the morning instead of oatmeal, I tend to eat more and crave carbs and sugar more during the day.
So, back to oatmeal this week.
I don't want to feel defeated. I want to move on.
I will resist the wonderful cake sitting on my counter.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Day 80
It is fun to keep up with the days to see how far I have come.
I do believe I have accomplished a lot. Not just weight loss, but heart growth!
I believe that doing this was in obedience to God. I was a miserable person. I was so focused on weight issues that it clouded everything else in my life. I was sick and tired of every moment being down about over eating and being over weight.
I feel like for the first time I am not focusing on it. I don't think constantly about what could I go get out of the refrigerator and eat. This is where my freedom is.
On the flip side, I am starting to struggle with where is my balance. When I eat something that is not on the recommended list (or maybe even is, but I haven't been eating it) I start to feel a little guilty - even to the point where I feel like I have just gained back every ounce I lost - all with one bite!
I go to the Y almost everyday. I feel better when I do. I feel guilty when I don't.
Where is the balance in this? I know it is all a mind and heart issue for me.
I know I need to find my freedom truly in God and not in my physical.
I just don't know how to really get there without continuing this physical journey as well. I keep thinking I will arrive at a place where I really feel good about myself.
What number on the scale will that be?
I don't think I will ever find it. I have only one time in my life been thin - at 125 lbs when I got married. I had been dieting and working out several times a day and drinking unhealthy amounts of water to get there. Yet, I still saw a fat person in the mirror.
If I was talking to someone else and they told me these things I would suggest counseling. I know there is eating disorder written all over this.
Lord, please help me.
I do believe I have accomplished a lot. Not just weight loss, but heart growth!
I believe that doing this was in obedience to God. I was a miserable person. I was so focused on weight issues that it clouded everything else in my life. I was sick and tired of every moment being down about over eating and being over weight.
I feel like for the first time I am not focusing on it. I don't think constantly about what could I go get out of the refrigerator and eat. This is where my freedom is.
On the flip side, I am starting to struggle with where is my balance. When I eat something that is not on the recommended list (or maybe even is, but I haven't been eating it) I start to feel a little guilty - even to the point where I feel like I have just gained back every ounce I lost - all with one bite!
I go to the Y almost everyday. I feel better when I do. I feel guilty when I don't.
Where is the balance in this? I know it is all a mind and heart issue for me.
I know I need to find my freedom truly in God and not in my physical.
I just don't know how to really get there without continuing this physical journey as well. I keep thinking I will arrive at a place where I really feel good about myself.
What number on the scale will that be?
I don't think I will ever find it. I have only one time in my life been thin - at 125 lbs when I got married. I had been dieting and working out several times a day and drinking unhealthy amounts of water to get there. Yet, I still saw a fat person in the mirror.
If I was talking to someone else and they told me these things I would suggest counseling. I know there is eating disorder written all over this.
Lord, please help me.
Monday, January 15, 2007
Day 75
Yesterday was weigh in day.....
I am down 5 more lbs. I am really happy about that. I think my goal is 7 more.
I keep changing my goal, but I guess I am allowed - it's mine!
I am feeling pretty good. I am happy about clothes being loose, but really need some new pants. Most of my pants are falling down and don't look real great because the bottom sags.
I never thought I would be complaining of them being too big!
I am craving bad stuff today. I did exercise. I got a salad from McDonald's today on the way home because I promised the kids. Man, their fries smelled sooooo good. I was dreaming about a quarter pounder with cheese and fries. MMMMMmmmmm. So I gave in and ate quite a few of Harrison's fries. I am feeling a bit guilty, but man were they good.
I guess that is where learning comes in. That it is ok to eat some bad things on occasion, just not everyday and not going overboard.
I just need to eat good the rest of the day.
Well, it is a rainy yucky day and I am in the mood to sleep. These are days when I wish I had no kids so I could just stay in the bed.
Another week down. Only the rest of my life to go!
I am down 5 more lbs. I am really happy about that. I think my goal is 7 more.
I keep changing my goal, but I guess I am allowed - it's mine!
I am feeling pretty good. I am happy about clothes being loose, but really need some new pants. Most of my pants are falling down and don't look real great because the bottom sags.
I never thought I would be complaining of them being too big!
I am craving bad stuff today. I did exercise. I got a salad from McDonald's today on the way home because I promised the kids. Man, their fries smelled sooooo good. I was dreaming about a quarter pounder with cheese and fries. MMMMMmmmmm. So I gave in and ate quite a few of Harrison's fries. I am feeling a bit guilty, but man were they good.
I guess that is where learning comes in. That it is ok to eat some bad things on occasion, just not everyday and not going overboard.
I just need to eat good the rest of the day.
Well, it is a rainy yucky day and I am in the mood to sleep. These are days when I wish I had no kids so I could just stay in the bed.
Another week down. Only the rest of my life to go!
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Day 64 and starting over
I started phase 1 over on Tuesday. I can't believe how much better I feel already.
Sunday at church a guy talked about addictions and breaking free from things. I had already known that I have an unhealthy relationship with food. I started this whole thing to work on that. 5 weeks into it I started feeling like hey I have beaten this thing...I am cured!!
HA! I fell on my face. I don't think I am going to cure myself. I know God is the cure. However, this has taken me 32 years to establish this problem, I don't think I am going to beat it in 64 days. I realize that this is a lifetime thing. I will probably always struggle. As long as there is food in the world I will struggle with wanting to eat it.
I do feel like this (fat smash plan) is the answer for me. I like eating healthier. I feel better physically and the weight loss is pretty nice too.
I also realize that this is a total God thing. I have to be spending time with Him on a regular basis to draw from his strength. I can't do thins thing on my own. When I started thinking that I was doing it, that is when I fell. I need God. I need his grace, mercy and forgiveness.
Sunday at church a guy talked about addictions and breaking free from things. I had already known that I have an unhealthy relationship with food. I started this whole thing to work on that. 5 weeks into it I started feeling like hey I have beaten this thing...I am cured!!
HA! I fell on my face. I don't think I am going to cure myself. I know God is the cure. However, this has taken me 32 years to establish this problem, I don't think I am going to beat it in 64 days. I realize that this is a lifetime thing. I will probably always struggle. As long as there is food in the world I will struggle with wanting to eat it.
I do feel like this (fat smash plan) is the answer for me. I like eating healthier. I feel better physically and the weight loss is pretty nice too.
I also realize that this is a total God thing. I have to be spending time with Him on a regular basis to draw from his strength. I can't do thins thing on my own. When I started thinking that I was doing it, that is when I fell. I need God. I need his grace, mercy and forgiveness.
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Day 57
I am struggling!
I gave in at Christmas and ate sweets, bread, popcorn, ham and eggnog (to name a few). I didn't get to work out for 4 days. AHHHH....now I am hooked again. I am craving food and wanting to eat everything.
I want to get back on track. But I am lacking the energy to get into the swing of things again. I am still battling this cough and sore throat. It is also the "week of anger."
I need God's help so bad.
I can feel myself slipping back into the old me. I don't want to be that anymore. It is funny how when you think you have gotten over something and conquered it - bam! You can fall right on your face. I know that I have the capability to get back up and try again. I just lack the drive at the moment. Please pray for me. I need energy - I need God's strength.
I am going to try to stay in phase 2 until Jan 2nd then start phase 1 again.
I gave in at Christmas and ate sweets, bread, popcorn, ham and eggnog (to name a few). I didn't get to work out for 4 days. AHHHH....now I am hooked again. I am craving food and wanting to eat everything.
I want to get back on track. But I am lacking the energy to get into the swing of things again. I am still battling this cough and sore throat. It is also the "week of anger."
I need God's help so bad.
I can feel myself slipping back into the old me. I don't want to be that anymore. It is funny how when you think you have gotten over something and conquered it - bam! You can fall right on your face. I know that I have the capability to get back up and try again. I just lack the drive at the moment. Please pray for me. I need energy - I need God's strength.
I am going to try to stay in phase 2 until Jan 2nd then start phase 1 again.
Monday, December 18, 2006
Day 47
Yesterday was weigh in day....
2 more lbs.!!!
Total is now 18.
I was surprised I lost any this week. We had a Christmas party on Wednesday and I ate a little of everything and several peanut butter balls, peppermint bark, and cookies. MMMMMM!!!
I also have this nagging cough that I cannot get rid of. It is making me a little more tired than usual. Not as much energy for working out.
I hope I can make it through the holidays without putting any weight on.
I am really going to try to eat as much on phase 2 as I can.
Happy Holidays! I probably won't post again until after Christmas. Please pray that I can keep on task and not give in too much.
2 more lbs.!!!
Total is now 18.
I was surprised I lost any this week. We had a Christmas party on Wednesday and I ate a little of everything and several peanut butter balls, peppermint bark, and cookies. MMMMMM!!!
I also have this nagging cough that I cannot get rid of. It is making me a little more tired than usual. Not as much energy for working out.
I hope I can make it through the holidays without putting any weight on.
I am really going to try to eat as much on phase 2 as I can.
Happy Holidays! I probably won't post again until after Christmas. Please pray that I can keep on task and not give in too much.
Friday, December 15, 2006
Yummy
Who would have ever thought that this would be what I was eating?This was dinner tonight. I thought it was pretty so I took a picture for you.
It was a tomato/basil burger and asparagus. It was very good!
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Day 39
I never thought in a million years I would make it to day 39.
Weigh in day!
My goal was to loose 15 by my birthday- in 2 days....
Well, today the total was 16 lbs!!!! WWWoooohoooo!
I am so excited by this. It is an amazing thing to see that scale go down - not up!
Beyond the weight there is so much more to this.
I am different. I am feeling a taste of freedom. God is doing amazing things with me.
I feel like I have a part of me back that has been in slaved for so long.
I have always been obsessed with food. It has been important - more than it should be. I was depressed most of the time over it. I never felt good about myself because of my over reliance on food to make me happy. I feel like I have been able to break some of those chains away.
I don't feel the internal cravings for food like I used to. I don't feel this need to medicate myself with something sweet. This is an amazing thing. It is beyond my ability to describe.
I am in awe of God and what he can do when we are obedient. I know that he has called me to do this for me and my family. I want to be the person he created me to be. This is a huge wall that is coming down. I know I have a long way to go. I know that I could become prideful and give myself the credit and go back to where I was. I don't want that. I want to be strong. I want to continue to seek him and continue to eat healthy.
I know that many people don't get this and don't understand. They just think hey she lost a few pounds. I wish they could see how much my heart has changed. I pray that the people around me can see the difference. God is stripping me of me.
Weigh in day!
My goal was to loose 15 by my birthday- in 2 days....
Well, today the total was 16 lbs!!!! WWWoooohoooo!
I am so excited by this. It is an amazing thing to see that scale go down - not up!
Beyond the weight there is so much more to this.
I am different. I am feeling a taste of freedom. God is doing amazing things with me.
I feel like I have a part of me back that has been in slaved for so long.
I have always been obsessed with food. It has been important - more than it should be. I was depressed most of the time over it. I never felt good about myself because of my over reliance on food to make me happy. I feel like I have been able to break some of those chains away.
I don't feel the internal cravings for food like I used to. I don't feel this need to medicate myself with something sweet. This is an amazing thing. It is beyond my ability to describe.
I am in awe of God and what he can do when we are obedient. I know that he has called me to do this for me and my family. I want to be the person he created me to be. This is a huge wall that is coming down. I know I have a long way to go. I know that I could become prideful and give myself the credit and go back to where I was. I don't want that. I want to be strong. I want to continue to seek him and continue to eat healthy.
I know that many people don't get this and don't understand. They just think hey she lost a few pounds. I wish they could see how much my heart has changed. I pray that the people around me can see the difference. God is stripping me of me.
Monday, December 04, 2006
Day 33
I forgot to post yesterday!
It was weigh in day.....a little nervous.
I was scared that I would not have lost anything and I was going to be mad and give up. Yes, I know this is not all about the numbers, but it sure helps to give you motivation.
So.....3 lbs!!!
My total is now 13. My goal was 15 by my birthday which is next Tuesday. I think I can do it!
I also had another good gift yesterday. I tried on a pair of pants to wear to church. A month ago I could not get my rear into them. They were super loose!!!
It is so bizarre how your body changes. I guess I am seeing results. It is just hard not to get focused on how much further I have to go.
I am just focused on the 2 lbs this week.
It was weigh in day.....a little nervous.
I was scared that I would not have lost anything and I was going to be mad and give up. Yes, I know this is not all about the numbers, but it sure helps to give you motivation.
So.....3 lbs!!!
My total is now 13. My goal was 15 by my birthday which is next Tuesday. I think I can do it!
I also had another good gift yesterday. I tried on a pair of pants to wear to church. A month ago I could not get my rear into them. They were super loose!!!
It is so bizarre how your body changes. I guess I am seeing results. It is just hard not to get focused on how much further I have to go.
I am just focused on the 2 lbs this week.
Friday, December 01, 2006
Day 28
Sorry, I have not posted in so long. I left for Thanksgiving then had a hard time getting back to blogging.
Yes, today is day 28. I can't believe it has been 28 days.
The week of Thanksgiving was tough on the eating, but I did ok. I went to my parents and my mom really tried to cook healthy for me. I did eat a couple of things I should not have, but it was the holiday. I did good until the ride home....I had a bag of homemade cookies in the seat next to me. I was only going to have one, then two, and it turned into 6 I think. I felt pretty bad about it. It was really hard to get back to no sugar stuff after that. It was back in my system and the cravings returned. The good news is I didn't gain any weight that week, however, I didn't loose any either.
I have been trying to work out every day since then. I am eating in phase 2. I don't think I am going to post menu everyday, but I am writing it down for myself. It helps me to know what I have eaten all day. I think I am doing ok, just need to work on the portion size.
Today I treated myself...
I took the kids to the mall. It takes self-control for me to not taste their french fries. Normally I would finish up things they haven't eaten. Or at least taste things that I am giving them...you know we moms have to make sure it is not poison first!
They got cookies for dessert and I decided I needed a treat. I a pumpkin spice coffee from Gloria Jeans. I got it with skim milk and no whip cream. It has been 29 days since my last coffee. We will see what my tummy thinks in a bit. It was absolutely delicious!!!
I miss my coffee drinks. In fact looking at the last 28 days I have only had water and occasional hot tea. I haven't missed the other drinks.
I am feeling good about myself. Clothes are fitting looser these days.
Paul gave me a wonderful comment (makes this all worth it) he told me that he thought I was looking good. It is nice when he notices changes in me. Sometimes you do all this and feel like you are getting no where. I don't see the changes so much. In fact this week I don't see them at all. I weigh in again on Sunday....I hope to see a little change in the scale. I'll let you know.
Yes, today is day 28. I can't believe it has been 28 days.
The week of Thanksgiving was tough on the eating, but I did ok. I went to my parents and my mom really tried to cook healthy for me. I did eat a couple of things I should not have, but it was the holiday. I did good until the ride home....I had a bag of homemade cookies in the seat next to me. I was only going to have one, then two, and it turned into 6 I think. I felt pretty bad about it. It was really hard to get back to no sugar stuff after that. It was back in my system and the cravings returned. The good news is I didn't gain any weight that week, however, I didn't loose any either.
I have been trying to work out every day since then. I am eating in phase 2. I don't think I am going to post menu everyday, but I am writing it down for myself. It helps me to know what I have eaten all day. I think I am doing ok, just need to work on the portion size.
Today I treated myself...
I took the kids to the mall. It takes self-control for me to not taste their french fries. Normally I would finish up things they haven't eaten. Or at least taste things that I am giving them...you know we moms have to make sure it is not poison first!
They got cookies for dessert and I decided I needed a treat. I a pumpkin spice coffee from Gloria Jeans. I got it with skim milk and no whip cream. It has been 29 days since my last coffee. We will see what my tummy thinks in a bit. It was absolutely delicious!!!
I miss my coffee drinks. In fact looking at the last 28 days I have only had water and occasional hot tea. I haven't missed the other drinks.
I am feeling good about myself. Clothes are fitting looser these days.
Paul gave me a wonderful comment (makes this all worth it) he told me that he thought I was looking good. It is nice when he notices changes in me. Sometimes you do all this and feel like you are getting no where. I don't see the changes so much. In fact this week I don't see them at all. I weigh in again on Sunday....I hope to see a little change in the scale. I'll let you know.
Monday, November 20, 2006
Day 17
Things seem really stressful at home. The kids have been rotten to say the least. In turn, I am a rotten mom. Paul's work is stressful and we don't get time together.
All that to say...this is getting tough to stay obedient.
The only time I feel really good is when I am working out at the Y. I think that is because it is the only time I don't have to chase anyone, yell at anyone or do anything but take care of me.
I would stay there all day if I could!
Day 17
7:30 - special K cereal with skim milk
9:20- 11:00 workout at the Y
11:45 am - chicken, brown rice, tomato/cucumber/dressing/feta cheese
3:00 pm - grapes, pop corn (plain and added TCBB)
6:00 pm - pizza (tomato, mushroom, basil, vege cheese) very yummy and I ate all of it - too much. I am really full and feeling bad about it. It just tasted sooo good.
I need to not make it so much, I think I over eat with it.
Kids are finally in bed. I am going to try to relax.
All that to say...this is getting tough to stay obedient.
The only time I feel really good is when I am working out at the Y. I think that is because it is the only time I don't have to chase anyone, yell at anyone or do anything but take care of me.
I would stay there all day if I could!
Day 17
7:30 - special K cereal with skim milk
9:20- 11:00 workout at the Y
11:45 am - chicken, brown rice, tomato/cucumber/dressing/feta cheese
3:00 pm - grapes, pop corn (plain and added TCBB)
6:00 pm - pizza (tomato, mushroom, basil, vege cheese) very yummy and I ate all of it - too much. I am really full and feeling bad about it. It just tasted sooo good.
I need to not make it so much, I think I over eat with it.
Kids are finally in bed. I am going to try to relax.
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Day 15 and 16
I am having a harder time posting everyday. I may have to do two days in one for now on unless I have a great revelation!
Today is actually day 16. I weighed this morning. I think my total loss is around 8-10 lbs.
Hard to tell exactly where the line is on the scale. I did chuckle at myself this morning. I made sure I went to the bathroom twice before weighing...then I stripped and laughed when I took the scrunchie out of my hair. You know they weigh so much!
Anyway. I was having to give myself a pep talk this morning. I had such big loss the week before, and this week was not as much. I didn't add that much into my diet and I worked out every single day. However, I remembered what Dr. Ian said in his cd I listened to his week. He talked about a pound lost is a pound lost. 10 lbs in two weeks is significant weight loss. He said to think about how long it took you to put it on, it is not going to come off in two weeks. Building a building takes time. So, I am trying not to think about numbers and enjoy the fact that some of my clothes fit better.
Day 15:
8:00 am - oatmeal and banana
9:00 am - workout at the Y
12:00 pm - we went out! my first out to eat experience - vege burger (no bun) green beans
1:00 pm - Julia and I walked for about a mile
Then I mowed the grass and raked the leaves in my yard and the neighbors.
5:30 pm - 2 vege burgers, tomato/basil
Day 16:
8:00 am Oatmeal and banana
11:30 am- Turkey, fruit/yogurt, brown rice (Thanksgiving meal at church)
3:30 pm - carrots
7:00 pm- chicken, brown rice, tomato/cucumber/lgt dressing/feta cheese
Tea for dessert
Today is actually day 16. I weighed this morning. I think my total loss is around 8-10 lbs.
Hard to tell exactly where the line is on the scale. I did chuckle at myself this morning. I made sure I went to the bathroom twice before weighing...then I stripped and laughed when I took the scrunchie out of my hair. You know they weigh so much!
Anyway. I was having to give myself a pep talk this morning. I had such big loss the week before, and this week was not as much. I didn't add that much into my diet and I worked out every single day. However, I remembered what Dr. Ian said in his cd I listened to his week. He talked about a pound lost is a pound lost. 10 lbs in two weeks is significant weight loss. He said to think about how long it took you to put it on, it is not going to come off in two weeks. Building a building takes time. So, I am trying not to think about numbers and enjoy the fact that some of my clothes fit better.
Day 15:
8:00 am - oatmeal and banana
9:00 am - workout at the Y
12:00 pm - we went out! my first out to eat experience - vege burger (no bun) green beans
1:00 pm - Julia and I walked for about a mile
Then I mowed the grass and raked the leaves in my yard and the neighbors.
5:30 pm - 2 vege burgers, tomato/basil
Day 16:
8:00 am Oatmeal and banana
11:30 am- Turkey, fruit/yogurt, brown rice (Thanksgiving meal at church)
3:30 pm - carrots
7:00 pm- chicken, brown rice, tomato/cucumber/lgt dressing/feta cheese
Tea for dessert
Friday, November 17, 2006
Day 14
I have made it two weeks!!!
I am really excited that I have actually stuck to something that long.
I had a wow moment this morning. I tried on a pair of pants that I tried on last Friday. Last Friday they were still tight. Today they fit and a little loose! YEAH!!!
That is what motivates me. Wearing the clothes in my closet again.
I listened to Dr. Ian's CD today. It was good. He was inspiring and helpful. I liked listening to him, he seems to have a great heart.
7:00 - special K with skim milk (no oatmeal today!!)
10:30- snacked on carrots for a while (at work today)
1:30 - vege burger, tomato/basil, with rice and lentils
3:30 - went for a walk with the kids
5:00 - banana, strawberry and apple cut up with yogurt
I was proud of myself that I didn't eat all the fruit in my bowl. I decided to save the rest for later.
I will probably have the rest after a bath.
Pretty good day. I feel good today.
I am really excited that I have actually stuck to something that long.
I had a wow moment this morning. I tried on a pair of pants that I tried on last Friday. Last Friday they were still tight. Today they fit and a little loose! YEAH!!!
That is what motivates me. Wearing the clothes in my closet again.
I listened to Dr. Ian's CD today. It was good. He was inspiring and helpful. I liked listening to him, he seems to have a great heart.
7:00 - special K with skim milk (no oatmeal today!!)
10:30- snacked on carrots for a while (at work today)
1:30 - vege burger, tomato/basil, with rice and lentils
3:30 - went for a walk with the kids
5:00 - banana, strawberry and apple cut up with yogurt
I was proud of myself that I didn't eat all the fruit in my bowl. I decided to save the rest for later.
I will probably have the rest after a bath.
Pretty good day. I feel good today.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Day 12 and 13
I really need to do better at writing things down again. When I don't blog that night I forget what I had yesterday.
Day 12:
8:00 - oatmeal with banana
11:00 - vege burger with homemade (mom) basil spread - very yummy
3:00 - yogurt
7:00 - chicken, rice, lentils, tad green bean casserole,
tea and grapes later for dessert.
We had a great small group last night. We were talking about inner beauty and what really makes a woman beautiful.
I have a very hard time not tying my weight into whether or not I feel beautiful. It has helped now that I am at least working on the problem and not over eating.
Maybe someday I will truly see myself as God sees me.
Day 13:
8:00 - oatmeal
12:00 - chicken, rice and lentils (that chicken is sooooo good)
5:00 - homemade pizza (oatmeal crust, tomatoes and basil) oh my gosh this is great!
Think I over ate on the pizza. It was the best thing I have had in a while. That is what is going to be hard not overeating on healthy things. It is amazing how good some healthy things taste!
See my other blog to see my nugget from God today http://socialworkermom.blogspot.com/
Day 12:
8:00 - oatmeal with banana
11:00 - vege burger with homemade (mom) basil spread - very yummy
3:00 - yogurt
7:00 - chicken, rice, lentils, tad green bean casserole,
tea and grapes later for dessert.
We had a great small group last night. We were talking about inner beauty and what really makes a woman beautiful.
I have a very hard time not tying my weight into whether or not I feel beautiful. It has helped now that I am at least working on the problem and not over eating.
Maybe someday I will truly see myself as God sees me.
Day 13:
8:00 - oatmeal
12:00 - chicken, rice and lentils (that chicken is sooooo good)
5:00 - homemade pizza (oatmeal crust, tomatoes and basil) oh my gosh this is great!
Think I over ate on the pizza. It was the best thing I have had in a while. That is what is going to be hard not overeating on healthy things. It is amazing how good some healthy things taste!
See my other blog to see my nugget from God today http://socialworkermom.blogspot.com/
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